Good morning!
Let's have an honest talk about yesterday....
How did your day go? Simple? As usual? Same ol', same ol'? For me, it was NOT a "usual" day for me (yes I didn't use "an" on purpose 
), but sitting here this morning, I am reflecting on the fact that, indeed, it used to be....
), but sitting here this morning, I am reflecting on the fact that, indeed, it used to be........second guessing, feeling "off", almost as though I was scraped by sandpaper....
What kind of situations in your experience make you feel that way?
I was snacking on ALL the things LOL 
...in an attempt to help me to process....and this morning, I received the grounding I needed.
...in an attempt to help me to process....and this morning, I received the grounding I needed. The thing that kept coming back to mind that helped me through is...."Sawubona".
Years ago, after reading my friend, Brian Grasso's book, I gave myself a little experiment. I had started something similar with a kindness experiment before reading the book, but the understanding was deepened with the concept of Sawubona. It was chapter 3 and I realized there was a missing part to my kindness project. "See yourself & Others" it was called. I forget to INCLUDE myself in the project. I was focusing more on the scientific aspect of the increase in seratonin levels of the receiver, the giver, and the observer, but I wasn't really SEEING myself in the project. To truly value and SEE others...it's amazing to offer true connection to others...and I took it a step further to "offer" true connection to myself.
From that point, it all became just an overflow....I was IN joy no matter what LOL. I picked a weed from a neighbour's lawn and felt no judgment for it. I held doors and shared smiles with no recoil.
Because for YEARS, I was chastised for smiling, for talking and connecting with strangers, and definitely judged for approaching others and offering some help without wanting "something" back. And it was usually quite a messy aftermath. I didn't care about the receiving, I cared about the experience of the "other" in the moment....And it felt SO GOOD to finally connect back in with ME!!! And I mean "ME", "M-E" with a capital "JOY!" in front of it!
It was to a point where I was dancing through the streets and smiling 
....most would look away and put their heads down, but I recall one guy started to dance at a distance "with me", complement my hat, and continue on his way 
It was a great day (and I love the hat too )
....most would look away and put their heads down, but I recall one guy started to dance at a distance "with me", complement my hat, and continue on his way It was a great day (and I love the hat too )From there, I built a foundation of "knowing" myself. I would build in a standard of things I would share with my boys, stuff that I would not do or say or contribute to, that would no longer flow from me, and then things I would remain sensitive to, as I saw it being the "gift" that I could help others with....
And yesterday, I was reminded very well, that it is IMPORTANT to nurture and know myself to the core. I keep it short and simple. Simple and consistent, and I practice daily. The values that I value within me...seems like a narrow path, but it has a broad and beneficial reach...this morning I am reminded to continue...in love, in joy, and to make sure I can see that for myself and for others.
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