Celebrating the woman that I am, as I am

 I hated women. Young ones, older ones. Didn’t like them.

But I love my mother’s mom.

The rest felt mean to me. Bullied me at school. Played tricks on me, laughed at me. Abandoned me and left me behind. Treated me like I was an alien.

But I had a few friends that were girls… And we are still friends today.

I was mocked. Told I couldn’t do what “they” were doing because I climbed trees, talked to animals, played with worms, and boys…

So I was called a “Tomboy”.... Whatever that is supposed to mean.

I hated simple, frilly girls clothes. I liked either super fancy with layers of lace and chiffon that went with my collection of cameos or “practical” dresses in playful prints and jewel tones that went with my skin.

So I only had the one or two dresses to go to church in because I was too “difficult” to shop with.

I hated being a “girl”. Mainly because I wasn’t “fitting” into what other girls expected me to do and like in order to be a “part of the club”.

SO I became very calloused towards “humanity” as a whole.

There were always exceptions. HUMANS that were nice, friendly, kind, childlike in their innocence and approach, and loved to have people smile with them.

SO why am I sharing this?

Because it might surprise some people who know me now. In truth, it surprises ME day in and day out… how BIG my heart has grown towards humanity, especially women.

The compassion for the journey… navigating all these “roles” we “have to” embrace. And then STILL giving to OURSELVES consideration and care?? WOW!

Or maybe not. Maybe you, as I did, STRUGGLED with carrying the burden of ALL the roles and didn’t share that care with yourself. And in truth, I wasn’t really caring for anyone else. I was doing ENOUGH so that it “looked” like care and then I could at least get rest and gather up what energy I had left…

And then I decided… to BE what I wanted and felt I needed… and to allow for feminine support in my life.

So today, I celebrate the women that help ME to celebrate and support women (and humanity) in a way that I am in awe of each day.

Thank you ❤️

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Sitting in the fullness that is my life.

 Great mawning!!

This morning I am sitting in the fullness that is .... my life.

The tasks that even yesterday seemed so pressing and that I just couldn't get ahead of, now seems so purposeful and connective.

The pile of laundry that didn't get attended to yesterday is now the perfect opportunity to get dressed in the clothes I need to be wearing for today.

The proposal that my son presented to me yesterday is no longer a space of frustration in not knowing how to make it work, but an opportunity that is rife with learning and potential.

I got the gift of spending time with a dear friend yesterday. We really haven't seen each other in YEARS, let alone had the opportunity to talk face to face for quite some time.

She readily introduced me to many people with tidbits from the past. Moments that "I" knew I cherished spending with her, but what an honour to hear how she held those moments dear as well.

I realized how much we were a part of each other's daily world. LOL she worked at the little coffee stop on campus where I fueled my education with spanakopita like NOBODY'S business!!

There was a point in the evening, where I shared about a pinnacle incident that we were BOTH present for, and she didn't remember any of it... not a WINK! I started in on another, realizing that at least I had pictures of proof for that one LOL.

And in returning home from our short visit, I realized... there is not a MOMENT of my life now, that I am not grateful that I have been through. At least after realizing that the build up of daily interactions built for us a friendship.

Yes, only a few days and even weeks ago, I was wanting a time machine to go back and "apply" myself differently in certain moments, but now...

I realize the Wealth of the daily walk and Presence with an AMAZING life companion that I had fully committed to over 20 years ago. 

"Looking back" and realizing there was not a day missed in INTENTIONALLY touching base with my Divine companion.... there now is nothing ...and everything before me that I know will involve being present with this Presence.

Now of course I say that and then in that, I feel the weight of holding a judgment to myself and humanity for falling short, but still... I choose to lead with a good heart filled with gratitude and intention that aligns with my simple statement and grand vision... A life lived in and with and through the essence and presence of God.

The lightness and "knowing" I am feeling myself in, WHILE even the events of today are not fully known. I am certain of the beauty of the unfolding of it all in this day called Today. And all I "have to" do is to allow myself to witness and feel the moments that I am in.

"Now" faith.

What moments in your life can you reflect on and "in" that give YOU a sense of "fullness" in life?


Here's to the start of a great week ahead ❤️



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We are called to show up as the answer. The power of our gifts

 Good mawning!

This was taken 6 years ago at what felt like the point at which everything came to a crashing point. After experiencing a beautiful year of flow and adventure and being asked to show up in so many wonderful spaces... sharing our voices and our presence, we found ourselves in the hospital supporting our son who was in critical condition.

After just navigating a similar decision point and making the choice I wanted to 6 years ago, and seeing the grace of Wisdom and the hand of Divine presence at work in the lives around me, I know that I was called at THAT time to use MY Fullness and serve greatly at moment such as this...

That moment 6 years ago was brought before me again in this last week. Not as intense, but still in the guise of "disruption".

Do you experience disruption in your life? Have you ever been vibing and flowing in a direction and then "ALL OF A SUDDEN" something "shows" up and takes you "off-track"?

YOU had everything planned and now, it's not going the way you want it to?

As these photos came up for me in my memories, I was reminded of Esther. (LOL, I can't with the timing of this post and Purim coming up...)

She was "called" to use the "gift" that she was given to make a stand for the lives around her. Those of her people and family.

She was in the PERFECT position and timing in her life to make use of that gift to serve and 'save' MANY.

Maybe you know you have a great gift that SHOULD be shared but you are sittin' on it... you are letting "things" get in the way of you choosing to use it.

I will tell you, after these last 6 years and being confirmed of this gift again, I'm going to get up and use it in this softer space of choice than if someone's life depends on it... because in truth, someone's life IS waiting for you to share the answer to their prayer and problem.

I'm really glad I took these pictures in this way. The moments that followed were very hard, strong, courageous, and necessary to save a life. <3

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