Friday, September 8, 2017

It can all start with one word... Genshai, the Golden Rule, Sawubona

Genshai - This word was introduced to me by Kevin Hall years ago whom I met personally at a conference where he spoke and I also received his book "Aspire" (which is on my keeper shelf) .
It's funny, because a year prior I was recommended by both Bob and John to get in touch with him as I had a similar love and particular"ness" for words in the same way.

....The meaning of the word, "that you should never treat others in a way that would make them feel small," I expanded to include myself and almost anything I come into contact with. It really expanded the way that I would receive the world around me. It also expanded the way I would read and well as my personal consideration and relationship with of God. The viewpoint from which I viewed my life "grew".

But I'm not sure that everyone would have read the meaning the same as I did. You see, it's not just about "not" making others feel's about questioning yourself on how you choose to see. Well, if it isn't "small" or "insignificant" than what is it? If I can't "belittle" it or take away the person's name and only refer to them as a number or a file, then what am I supposed to do? And also, if we can't think small does that mean we have to think big? Well, why not for the possibility of more...that like you, this person or thing before you has had quite the journey and story to share that might just surprise you....that might even inspire you....and might connect you to a part of you that you are meant to "see" in a deeper way.

And in that, the "golden rule" comes forward. "Do to others whatever you would like them to do to you." But have you considered yourself really and truly know what you would like? In life, in actions, in love.... to bring love forward to another? Again, this scripture asks you to consider yourself and what YOU like...

And yet another  word, Sawubona.
This is a Zulu greeting that means “We see you”. And in the expanded version of how I apply it in my life...if I am saying this greeting, “Sawubona”, who is “we”? This again brings around your consideration into yourself….”who” is “I”? For myself, my “I” is a wholeness that includes the ever-presence of God...period. So with 7 billion people alone on this earth (and not including the other beings of animals, bugs, etc on this planet) that we are sharing breath with, we get to witness what would be a handful of those around us. We don’t get to see everyone who may pass by in the same space, so what does that mean for those of us that we do get to see? Perhaps there is a greater reason we can explore if we choose to connect to it.

In order for us to consider the vastness, the significance, the potential greatness of one another, we must first give that consideration of ourselves. So I ask you (and myself) today, In what ways have you been treating yourself and considering yourself as small? And how can you suspend those thoughts and considerations to allow yourself to be seen (and enjoyed) in a “bigger” way? Honestly, our dreams are but a glimpse of what is possible...but it is still possible. And if we could just expand our day to day view of much more joy and wonder could we be experiencing?

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

I am and you are not a burden. You are cherished

Good morning, 

As I went to settle the worries of an anxious child this morning I shared how it was my honour to consider his safety, happiness, and well-being. By no means is it a burden or where I would have him to feel guilt or shame for having to consider such things. I don't expect him to be perfect. I don't want to expect or imagine a perfect fairytale-all-done-for-you existence. Sometimes I remember what it feels like to think that I "should" be one way or another. How I didn't meet up to the expectations of those around me and how I was "supposed" to feel weighed down with guilt and though that was supposed to motivate me to be something different than what I am or what I was experiencing. To have the guilt and shame morphed me into something...ANYthing other than me so others could be happy.

And I can feel that now....that there are expectations of me to be the happiest, healthiest, and wealthiest person in the lives of those around me. That anything that I could imagine becomes my reality in an instant. That I could travel and be anywhere I wanted to be at the drop of a hat. That I could just speak and money would be dropped at my feet in overflowing abundance. That I would be beautiful to behold by all and just glow with infinite wisdom and radiance. Oddly enough, I know that there are those in my life that are disappointed with me....having illness to live with, work through, and overcome. That I have financial struggles.  That I 'waste' my intelligence in the presence of stupid, 'uneducated' people. That I carry any extra weight or body fat not rippling with muscle tone. I have crushed their expectations with bruit force. And with all this, here I Imperfect, ill, struggling, not as fit as I once was....  

I admit, I do have a 'hint' of struggle. I recognize my own humanity. And I also  look to what it is that I truly value, want, and love in my life. I may not be dreaming about a "dream" life for myself, as I have let dreaming slip from me recently, but I DO feel honoured to have the privilege to witness, love, and stand up for my beautiful family. That their smiles and hugs and touches light me up. That sharing in their struggles and maybe able to be their for support is a gift. To be spoken to and listened to by them fills my soul. That their actions in life include me in it. That the beauty of discovery and growth can be shared with and celebrated. I feel so special to be associated with them and know that I look on with such joy and delight....You see, I have expectations too. But these are the moments that I cherish experiencing and because they get to be here and living is an honour for me to witness. And then from there, I chose to honour the witnessing of ME being here and in my unique experience...through divine union. And it's not about my family first or me's just that they are a part of my immediate experience each day. And it's THAT that goes unseen. Your witnessing of your perspective and experience in this world. SO who better to appreciate than you? Who better than me to give honour to the joy of my experiences than me?

I love you, and I hope you can love and celebrate you too...with all of us ❤

Love always,

Thursday, August 10, 2017

"Eggshells of humanity"- Remove the blocks to one another connections

Have we gotten into the habit of creating a mine field full of proverbial eggshells that get in the way of genuine connectivity between one another?
Because, if you were to put off the examples of contact that you may have "acquired" from others (that don't work too well) and you approached your neighbour per se with childlike curiosity and innocence, what do you think would transpire?
I watched how my boys hesitated to go across the street and play with our neighbour's grandson and his dad. I went over and sat on their porch and still...they lingered. The dad invited them over and from there they had a great time playing basketball. Laughter, excitement, play, and joy. No imaginary eggshells needed. No preconceived awkward moments...just the experience of making some new friends and connections 
Maybe we should "try" for the ease of connection first instead of the readiness of defense. Today my son kicked a few "eggshells" aside and gave me a hug.  I think that is a great place to start 
#thankyouGod #Lovefirst #oneanotherlove #designedforconnections #alreadythere #divineunion #Sawubona #INjoy

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

Just sit, and eat the good cookie! Changing the ingredients (bones) of the story

A story....about joy, sharing your intentions, communication, choosing to be in the moment of connection and hearing/listening to one another, expressing your ability to support others in their joy, and loving...through condition/situation/circumstance.

...I'm being haunted by dang cookies! LMBO!! From a buffet of cookies (non gluten-free) being laid out as snacks, to a cookie monster t-shirt (same night), to not choosing to eat a favourite cookie for the experience of something new and wishing you had the cookie you love (and having eaten "BAD" poutine) and top it ALL off, an unexpressed desire to have a cookie that lead me to "losing" my appetite ...which I haven't experienced in a LONG time.

So naturally, I think today is a PERFECT day to bake cookies!! SERIOUSLY! It's time! To claim FULLY this cookie "monster" and own it by bringing it full circle into a supportive space...REALLY! LOL!

And with that said, yesterday's events didn't allow for the fullest experience of joy into the "cookie" space as what could have been had. It got clouded with uncommunicated intentions and not very thoughtful behaviours that robbed a perfectly good JOY moment of its radiance.

Now the details....hmmmm...they tend to open up a can of worms sometimes or can take away from the overall message if not trained in observing or trying to witness the connections. So I will start with the Connective points...

...these are from my bias observation.... a missed opportunity of connection after an accomplishment...a moment of disappointment....feeling of fatigue....the desire to feel good and experience joy...miss opportunity to share joy...crossed wired of communication...oversight of overstimulus (a.k.a. distracted) ...a desire to connect in the chaos and to be heard...the putting on of shame and anger and blame...the refusal to be blamed for distractions...the silent treatment...loss of appetite....still under the cloak of blame and not being seen or heard...putting up a wall of space (guarding my heart)...disgusted by disconnection...more silence...speeding...getting tired at the wheel...flinching...separation....disconnection....isolation....whatever...triggered anger....reflection...ownership...choice

....the story behind it, just as long. All because of a cookie? No... the story and the cookie are all circumstantial...situations....conditional. It could be glazed over with any story as "frosting" and in truth, it has been.

Same bones (or ingredients) ...But what could help change the reincarnation of these bones over and over ....and over again? By first seeing them there for what they are. Blowing off situation after situation (same "stuff", different pile my folks used to say) just keeps breathing the same breath into these dry bones....only for them to fall flat again and again.

BUT, if we choose to really see them...and take away the extras (the bones that no longer connect, support or serve us) and put it together in an order that can support itself....well, then maybe it can stand ....firm...and jump and dance, and TRULY come alive. And be that full expression of love, and joy...regardless of the "skin" those bones get put into... need to justify....sustainable....energizing....uplifting...Amazing!

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

You are an agent of agency. The gift of divine choice

Good morning! My "ponders" this morning have been interesting....all centered around choice. We are ALL divinely gifted with "agency". This is the individual capacity to make your OWN choices....However, have you noticed, that in every are "forced" to use it? Even continuing on in reading this post is an expression of both agency and the "structure" of having to choose. Even when you think you aren't choosing, you are. Even when you think you are "tired" of "others" making choices for you, you chose to allow it. Even when you have set up an individual structure based on a belief that you will not let anyone "sway" your choice, you are choosing to show up in the moments of your life with the filter of mistrust and the desire to control your own destiny. Which you have! Because you made the choice!
Years ago (and with other likeminded individuals who share on the same point), I began to explore the value and weight of this gift. I decided (chose) to allow myself to pause and witness for the "space" between an opportune moment and the "action" that followed the choice.
Actually, it began in the grocery stores when my boys were in the stroller and somehow....there was a constant "choice" by many ladies to RUN INTO THE STROLLER with their shopping carts! It was driving me nuts! Challenging my "momma bear" to no end. Several ladies were quite rude and others acted as though they didn't see them. SO I started bringing a friend along to see what was happening. And INDEED, time and time again...BASH!!....scaring my child, causing him to cry, and "engaging" the conversation of "why did you do that?" And myself and my friend noticed as we shopped not just the crash choices, but the process of weighing choice. It became a game to witness the gap :)
I share this (not to say that I set up the scenario, which I didn't. As a new mom, the first thing I wanted was my son to be quiet for moment or enjoy his nap...) to bring light to the fact that not only do we all have choice in every moment, but that there is also a "gap" between the options of choice and the following course of action. And in that, when we are observing the gap between choice and action, we also get the opportunity to recognize how we are using our divine gift of agency as well. We get to chose within the choice of choosing our moment to moment actions....hmmmmm , that was a lot of choice in there LOL. In short, how do I want my process of choice to look like? Do I want to set up a foundation where I can't trust anyone, and then filter from there? Do I want my choices to reflect that I desire to see beauty, love, and light in each moment? Do I want my moments in life to be serving the greater good of all around me and to light the path for others in each step I take? Really, the possibilities are endless! In which EVER direction you CHOOSE, it is yours to live and to becomes your breathing experiences. It's so awesome to just know the level to which you can not only CHOOSE but also to CHANGE in any given moment...and the next moment....and well, that choice in that moment din't go so well, but there is CHOICE waiting to be explored in the the very NEXT moment, and so on and so on.
SO my dear friends, I honour your gift of choice and how you choose to use it. And I, will also be honouring and using MY gift of agency in the way I have chosen for it to be expressed in my life as well....moment by moment.

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Opps, it's a bit "cajun"! For the love of mastery!

I shared a story of inspiration in life on facebook this morning. My heart is still full from being put back in the moment as it was happening. I truly believe that...the gifts of experience and the treasures hidden in our pasts are meant to be gems in our present and future living. Enjoy the story ❤

Good morning! ❤ I cooked one side of an omlette for my hubby a lil "crispy" this morning. Well done eggs at least And then I was transported to a memory of having gone out to breakfast when my grandpapa was here visiting from NY. The server brought my dad a stacked plate of pancakes. Well loaded with all the fixings. My grandpapa was sharing his tip for perfectly brewed coffee and how to take the bitterness off (add a small pinch of salt to the bottom of the pot as it brews). As my dad went to cut into the stack, he couldn't get through. His laughter in that moment still inspires me. He knew exactly why. His face read like a book. Both when they brought the well dressed stack and when he tried to cut into it.
You see, my dad LOVED to cook. He is a gourmet. He worked with cruise ships and some time in New Orleans. And his main contract as a decorator was with top hotels and a restaurant business. He prided himself in living in mastery...
So he knew the pancakes were burnt on one side. He called the server over and shared a story....that story lead into the reason why it's not good to hide your "shortcomings" and how it is better to desire to share the best of your choices and work.
LOL he got an even bigger, fluffier, stack of fresh pancakes brought out.
I didn't burn the omlette that bad LOL.... I did put the "burnt" side to the middle...and I am extremely grateful to be continuing on the "teachings" from the mundane, the playfulness in mastery, and the heart of hidden treasures.

Monday, February 13, 2017

The awakened caterpillar...coming into your Divine Radiance

I just had a moment of silence....embracing the joy of Being who-what-why-how I am and I opened my eyes with a revelation...

You see, let me fill in with a little back story...A couple weeks wait....maybe only a week ago, ...YES! It was made clear to me that the hubster now had clarity...of wanting every burden and hindance to be dropped by his side like his tool belt at the end of a work day and jut run with his face held up to the sunshine ....freedom is calling. A couple weeks before that he announced he contacted someone about selling the house. It triggered a bunch of emotions in me, but yes, it was and is time to think about the next stage of development for this property. I know I had a vision of how I wanted it to look, but it wasn't coming through in the way I was hoping...maybe this would be how it was to come. All I know is that I like to leave a place in a good way, so that our memory and impact will sit in the hearts of those around us in a positive way. I shared with the boys that this time has come and for them to prepare their hearts and minds for it. That packing up our stuff would be happening one way or another for a good improvement to our living space.  I also am well aware that our family thrives on travel and we have navigated our travels quite well...making ourselves at "home" no matter what community we happen to land up in.

I know I married someone of transcient nature....that he would not want to stay put in one place too long without experiencing even more. I have watched and listened to his heart beat and race...I have seen him shove past his crippling anxiety to become familiar and grounded in the new unknown...he opens wide to receive and then when he has experienced enough, he looks to the fringe of the horizon and desires to acquaint himself with its unseen views and pulse.

But for many years I have watched as he has tried to "make" himself into something...and now, at the edge of completion and advancement he has come to realize that he has been enough JUST as he is for a long time. The years of advancing and building a persona are quickly unravelling and the threads are snapping as the web of its creation is being torn away to reveal what is already great from within...and his desire is to allow it space to glow and radiate...his Being is upon him...upon us all.

I have often thought of it as it has been, in the past, more about him being free than recognizing that he has a wife and family and that we actually ADD to his life and not HOLD him down. But who knows...maybe me "trying" to think even establish a stable foundation that we could have our needs met and not get stuck somewhere without a way out or something to return to...more residual income, investments, connections, etc. All the things that I figured would give a stable support as we travel around the world. It is a beautiful plan....and it may very well come to fruition.

So,....The revelation...maybe I am NOT thinking as BIG as I could...if I was a Shephard of this "flock" called humanity...I would KNOW that I have a VAST area to cover....and I would travel light...

...sigh....much "lighter" than I am travelling now.  Jesus travelled with the cloak on his back and the sandals on his feet...oh! and with Disciples by his side....and even though he stay within a localized spot (to our knowledge), he shared Universal impact!

And with that, I opened my eyes and realized there is even MORE I am willing to do order to BE more.  Not as a plea for "acquiring" and living a minimalistic lifestyle, but more about the freedom to bring more to those within humanity...locally and globally.  I don't know...if we could handle a broader and more global experience....I think it would need to be more....actually...I don't know...I can't put framework around something I have no clue it's time to start filling in the fuzzy and obscure....with living experience.  And in the meantime, I will not only start clearing out more to allow for "wings" to unfurl from their cocoon, but to also continue working on the foundation that I have been working on ....with God's guidance and grace. I believe all will come together to meet the needs and desires of our WHOLE family so that we can bring beautiful impact, experience, and radiance into our lives and the lives of others.

Friday, January 27, 2017

Just get ticked off! The infamous "List"

Yeah I did it! After a year of thinking about it…and letting it hang over my head for about that long….I finally got so TOTALLY ticked off! I feel so free now! 
What am I talking about? I am referring to something I can't stand! It is NOT my favourite do....I by no means feel the thrill of the "infamous" TO DO LIST! That's right! I have some emotional baggage that needs to get cleared from the process of doing "the list". Just major ughness sometimes...almost to a point that my refusal to do it makes me upset HAHA....not one of my best "relationships" going. It's not that I am such a free flowing spirit that everything must come with synchrinocity and divine timing. I actually don't mind....okay, nope....not today...still have anxiety around the list...I admit...even with putting down a wish list...just nah...not right now BUT...I am hyped about getting that THING of my back...what thing?

Getting  some serious details of our business in order. Yup! I put that bugger on a “to do” list almost a year ago and it had been haunting me ever since.  Honestly, and every time I passed by it, I would feel so weighted down with guilt…and almost shame…that one day I decided to really ask myself why….why is this not really done yet? And I realized that I HAD been taking steps towards getting it done…they just didn’t turn out the way that I had hoped they would LOL. A lot kept falling through on it…calls not returned, etc. ….and I resolved to not get myself down and worked up about it, but to continue to make those steps forward. Now of course, I didn’t do it as perfectly as I would have liked, but I can see now how I would do things differently here and there….but I kept at it! ... and now, as it is in the home stretch of completion, I am SO excited to be free of that item hanging over my head. And from that point I will tell you, there has been nothing but momentum …every task that comes up…isn’t even making TO the list stage…It’s just getting “ticked” off as it comes up…

Now, not all things can be done in that way….but this week has been just lit with flow and having things happen. Partly because they are opportunities of the time sensitive nature…but also, the level to which these things sit only at the “edge” of our comfort zone, but still trigger excitement….that’s the sweet spot and for us, that where the magic of “done” happens.

So yeah, I’m totally ticked off today and I am going to get even MORE "ticked" off with all that needs to get done…just watch. This will be on fire by the end of today…so excited for whatever else comes forward in this flow…just loving it

Monday, January 23, 2017

Inspired into action...change has come in 2017

There have been few …that have come to bring change and succeed on a global scale. All of which have had their lives threatened and people wishing them dead because they challenged the way things were ordered and established in traditions for ages.

Over the course of the last year there have been many reasons to become offended, become defensive, or to be forced to think. The USA presidential campaign brought out the hearts of people on a global scale and called into movement a change that will never be reversed. The campaign of the now current President of the USA is that exact catalyst. Many were pulled out of their slumber as though the sheets were ripped off of them in the middle of the night and they were dragged onto the front lawn in their skibbies. It was raw, it was exposing, it changed many people, almost to the point of obsession. Many are still mad…their every comment and discussion filled with the flavour and seasoning of their fuming rage from within.

Oddly enough, that slumber has been going on long enough….they were in beds as corpses…malnourished and asleep to the reality that the house they were dragged out of was the comfort of their covers and a house that has gone ablaze.

It was time for change…not time to hit the snooze button and have others continue to raid your house while you stayed unconscious to their actions and the ongoing deception of humanity.

So how do you feel now? Enraged? Enlivened? Ready to take up arms? Try and prove someone wrong? To take back what is yours? To threaten? To want someone dead? To want a mass of failure on "him" and his family for generations? To cut "him" off at the knees the way it feels that you imagined that he would do to you? 

You see, even though….now you have been “inspired” to take up the fight and stand up for “others”, we are not officially there yet….it’s still about how "you" got triggered and offended by things that someone said…..far beyond them actually having the “power” to do those things, you imagined that power and that privilege being taken away, abused, and manipulated by someone else. YOU created the future of seething hatred and it only exists in the minds of the offended….and now the "inspired".

So how will you manage having seeds of your very own character thrown in your face? Will you throw them back and hope your arm is stronger than what hit you? Or will you take a moment and see yourself…frothing at the mouth and pumping your chest..will you come face to face where those offenses you felt have actually been subtly given to those around you from your very own actions and words…Will you see the dark and shadowy pieces of your own character and then choose to be moved to make those changes from a heart that is GENUINELY grounded in love and knowing that it is time for you to wake and make change happen in 2017. 

We now have so many willing (and pajama wearing) collaborators that want this change with a passion. Working together has never been inspired on this planet through a collaborative dislike for one person like this before. Many make the reference to Adolph , but Adolph was well loved by many…and it was through that long standing love that he manipulated the masses. As for Donald, he has not inspired people through love as much as he has triggered people into action through hitting the "right" buttons...Some were of becoming offended and defensive. For others, he triggered hope and vision...he didn't bring anyone in close, but he challenged us ALL to think. To think about our use our imagination, either for the better or for the worse. 

But recognize, that for many, "you" had to be triggered to hate (or STRONGLY dislike to a point where you continue to attack the offender….) to be moved into action. Burning house indeed. Let us recognize first ourselves in the mirror as you come out of your slumberous grogginess…accept with full ownership your thoughts and actions….grab a brew and let’s begin to move our futures in a beautiful direction, beyond our imaginations and definitely beyond our manipulated dreams.

Monday, January 2, 2017

I remember! Thoughts on the Mandela effect...

Have you heard of this? The rising phenom about aspects of our past reality that in our current "reality" are no longer the same...AND tha people remember it being different EVEN THOUGH, it is almost near impossible to find evidence that it ever existed....

Have you heard of it? It's referred to as the Mandela Effect.  Now I don't know about you or what you remember from your past or even your childhood....or if you still have anything in hard evidence to prove you even had a childhood here on the country you live in....with the people you thought you knew....I personally have many conversations with others...reminiscing about our past ventures... I am grateful for my circle of friends who remember what I remember experiencing in a similar way.  HOWEVER, this is not the experience of everyone...sometimes, there are those who remember the exact same circumstance, but completely different. Most of the time we just blow it off, but sometimes, it is more of us remembering it one way and this one person having a completely different recollection. For now, we will refer to it as perspective. And many times the details get lost because of differing perspectives....fair enough.

But recently, I have been faced with the "reality" that, in those shared circumstances, there are some that are experiencing a whole lot more than a simple observation, or their perspective has brought them to a complete different experience and sometimes that experience is riddled with trauma. That trauma can lead to an experience in the personality that leads to mental health issues... PTSD, and sometimes existing Mental health issues such as Bi Polar Illness can give reality a different twist than the others experiencing it with them.  So, in light of honouring the individual perspective, I thought that I would share a pondering on Facebook about how I would use (or not use) the Mandela effect in my life ...

"With thoughts in regards to the Mandela effect.... How would you choose to "edit" things from your past? I do it on my Facebook page all the time...I "Mandela effect" it ALL the time....edit spelling...add hashtags...delete posts...but from my life....nope. The threads of connections that have stemmed from even the slightest experience, has helped to make my experience in this very moment exist. Full on contentment...yup! I said it! I am content with every moment that allowed me to experience the fullness of joy and gratitude and knowledge and love in this very moment. (all "corrections" included). Could that be a part of the whole thing? That when we come to the part of embracing it ALL with gratitude (maybe because we are still around to have that experience of being grateful for something...) that the things that we looked less favourably on begin to be transformed...transmuted...that they no longer get to have that "hindering", gripping, and annoying etch in our lives as they did at some point and they become "edited" in our experience? perhaps...all just ponderings that may or may not be applied. There is a bigger picture that has already been drawn and is being painted at the same time...
OOOOoooo....that reminds me....back to "work". ;)
#inallthings #experiencing #divinevision #inGratitude "

p.s. after a conversation on the Mandela effect, also the possibility of time travel disturbances was mentioned....hmmmmmm....