This photo was taken the day after...
Happy observ-anniversary to me... ?
This weekend last year was when much of my world shifted and the state of grief I was already in deepened.
It took some deep tugging on my mindset socks and the support of a dear friend who was also a trained advocate to truly help me at this moment in time.
I didn't want to put words, thoughts, or expectations to what was going to happen next, so I switched to my observer mode.
Just to be clear, it was not dissociation. I wanted to allow myself the "wisdom" of holistic experienc-ing WHILE responding and observing through the journey of it all.
It can be HARD to not allow your expectations for others to get in the way of what IS happening and seeing the situation with objectivity (may or may not be the word I am looking to use 
).
).In the mindset practice I use, it's called the triad. Self-love, compassion, and "I don't know " is applied to navigate through situations with your mindset intact LOL.
I know many reactions and situations I could have applied this to in the past to save me trouble and get me through a rough patch.
I saw me.
Being friendly, listening to what was being shared, WHILE also having compassion for myself to express what I was feeling.
I cracked like an acorn that day... which allow a wave of painful and rapid growth to follow.
I sit here in gratitude for the tools and support that got me through to today 
No comments:
Post a Comment