I choose love first

 Good mawning!

I choose love first!

How do I know? Because I remind myself to.

Because I do it for this little girl.

This girl had people standing around her pulling at her hair in the playground. They threw sand in it. "HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!" They laughed and laughed.

They piled gym mats on her in gym class so they could stick the velcro to her hair. "HAHAHA" It was so funny!

They shoved her face into the metal doors in the winter. One time her tongue got caught and she was stuck to the door while everyone went inside. "HAHAHAHA." Stuff happens.

This girl got called names and made fun of... "You're so buggable! It's fun! Why aren't you laughing?" "You're so serious! Chill out!"

It's when I decided... I was NO LONGER the "butt" of the jokes and the one to be singled out, made fun of, ostracized...

That I found the love... of my own company first. Then of the beauty in the world. Then of connecting with those who have gone through similar in their lives... at the "expense" of someone else's "HAHA".

That when people want to label and mock you and "decide" you are something that you are not... and they mistreat you... show "Rasha"... exclude you... "Rudolph" you, and laugh it off like it's not a poor choice to not show kindness or love... to not encourage daily with sincerity and consideration...

I'm grateful.

That I get to be "sensitive" to the importance of kindness and the need of love first. That I was sensitized to the needs of the meek and weary. That leading with love and connection through a revered state opens the doors for others to do the same and then... move into a space of "softening" and even giving a "haha" or two at our challenges, limitations, and even non serving behaviour.

I'm grateful for the moments I feel sad, discouraged, weighed down, disappointed. I don't stay there. AND in those moments, where it can be harder to pick yourself up and you are needing support, I PRAY that support will show up for you in whatever ways possible... including me, in this moment, keeping my word to this girl to choose each new day to #lovefirst.

#thankYouGod #divinelysupported #encouragedaily #builduponeanother #tzedakah #oneanotherlove #connect #Sawubona #getsupport

What battle are you "frontlining" right now?

 Good mawning!

What battle are you "frontlining" right now?

ROAD TRIP! We decided that we were going to make an adventure out of a task.

We saw the opportunity in it to create a moment and memory out of it, and put the plans into action.

We readied the hearts of young men to navigate their own weekend activities while we planned out ours.

#oneanotherlove and connection is what we are in the process of. And through, growing up in our own relationship and awareness of God.

We want to be a space of welcome and hospitality for others. I want to be that space within myself FOR myself and God as well.

Emptying my "cup" of what mo longer serves or benefits and having it filled with goodness so I can drink from what builds and fills me up.

In the most subtle of moments...the battle arises. This trip together almost didn't happen. But I didn't let the dirty water that I no longer wanted to drink get in the way of a great plan and opportunity that was meant for something greater.

Hold to the vision. Trust the process...and KNOW ... distractions will try to detour you. Stubborn pride may derail you. And non serving ideas and beliefs will try to own you...if you let it.

Choose YOUR mastery and higher experience. Nurture YOUR Divine and welcoming space. Stand firm and flow with the good that wants to be in your life. Then navigate the road you will travel along the way.

Much shared. Much gained. And even new "challenges " to grow through... see and know... Sawubona

#ThankyouGod #gratitude #Divinegifts #oneanotherlove #ofgreatValue #trusttheprocess #holdthevision #choosegoodness #connection #within #divineunion #LoveFirst

Because of… It’s okay to not be

 Good mawning (awakening)!

"Because of…"

I was watching a video and listening to someone speak and when "that" phrase was spoken and what followed was given a strong weight of energy and charge, I sat back and was grateful for yesterday.

....

Yesterday I was having an off day.

And I allowed it to be okay to do so.

I just didn’t feel the need to go “seeking” for the “fix”.

I didn’t feel the desperation to “get back on track”, to “pick myself up”, or to “blame” something or make something I was doing or did “wrong”.

I didn’t need to peg a “because of ___” in order to justify it or get “out” of it.

I just accepted that I was going to stick to my schedule, keep doing the “mom” thing, keep my appointments (walking with the boys included), even WITH not feeling fully blissed out with joy or buzzing with warm fuzzies.

Yes, there were some things that maybe would help… but I chose to spend the time with myself closer to neutral than to seek external “things”, praises, connection…

I connected with myself… sitting patiently with the Divine support… knowing I was okay in each moment… and if I wasn’t, I would know and do what I had to do.

Not everyday rides “high”. Some days are more mellow… or even not so much. Some days can be low too.

It’s okay. You are okay. It doesn’t stay that way. And in a “live-full” life, you “get” to experience the range of what is available… we “get to” choose.

Today, I “get to” choose me, see me, observe me, and BE me. And that already feels really good… to me.

#thankyouGod #divinelysupported #livelifefull #itsokaytonotbeokay #itstemporary #divinegifts #dailywalk #trusttheprocess #fromwithin #enjoyyourowncompany #inthesilence #thereis #presence #bestillandknow #youare #greaterstill

Discovering a new level today...

 Discovering a new level today...

There are a few things we had set on our "want" list or as a possibility in our visions for our lives together.

Some set to experience sooner and some set as a very strong "end" type vision (retirement version).

So what happens when... your big vision calls you to show up? What happens when your dream job calls you and wants to meet with you? What happens when YOU, exactly as you are, has been the answer to someone's prayer?

Does that mean the "end" is near? And how scary is THAT thought? For me, it has been both beautiful and sad.

And yet today, it let me know, it was only to the edge of where I allow my vision to take me. So yes, this time has come. And definitely NOT in any way I could have imagined. PERFECT!

Now is the time to.... accept that this is "okay" and normalize it, while ALLOWING myself to dream even MORE, because it is not the end...

Allow your dreams to flow in as expected as waking up tomorrow after you head to bed. Normalize BEING IN the life you want to be living, so you can continue to stretch into YOUR next level.

I had to challenge both the grief and fear in receiving this vision...and the teaching that I CAN dream even bigger than I have been.

Alrighty then! Thank you God

#Biggerpicture #greaterstill #oneanotherlove #ofgreatValue #lifetothefull #LoveFirst #ThankyouGod #gratitude #Divinegifts #INjoy #trusttheprocess #Holdthevision #Dreambigger

Be Patient. Sometimes you have to go through the worst to get the best

 Good mawning!

This last "season" has been about going into the edges of my very existence.

And God met me there. With levels of awareness and acceptance that feeling into its fullness was the only way to "understand".

From that "depth", life has moved and transitioned so quickly, that "flow" and keeping in step with the Spirit is the only way to not miss a step.

I "asked" for this... I "survived"... and "next" is in progress...

#ThankyouGod #SeekFirst #instep #flowstate

#acceptance

#DivineGifts #biggerpicture #greaterstill #lifetothefull #Sawubona #LoveFirst

The battle in the journey of knowing and seeing ourselves

 Good mawning!

There is a sort of battle that goes on in the process of supporting someone on the journey to seeing and experiencing themselves.

In fact, there are many little moments of coming up "against" past experiences that took a shape and significance...that sometimes colours future situations with the same stroke of the brush. That don't "allow" new moments to be unique to themselves.

The "battle" is against previous programming and conditioning that doesn't allow for you to stretch into YOUR new growth and expanded awareness... or to SEE the wonder, awe, and beauty of who you are and what your life has been.

This is why compassion, empathy, kindness, and courage are as salve to the soul. This is why daily practice of encouraging yourself and others helps to move you forward each day.

We face these "opportunities" each day. To grow, to see, to harvest the lessons and awareness, and to move forward to embrace new moments where we can grow and live a little more into.

Do you "see" more and more of you are and can become each day?

#ThankyouGod #biggerpicture #greaterstill #LoveFirst #compassion #Sawubona #empathy #EncourageDaily #itsyourjourney #lifetothefull