Hit the ESC button and return to your Core

 

Good mawning!

It's time to hit the ESC button!

It's a play-on with my initials, but from many of the heart-felt rants I have heard lately, I wanted to share a bit of my "why" today and maybe, just maybe it can "help" someone who is struggling in their own journey today.

Recently I have experienced another loss. It really had me thinking. It had me recalling the last conversation I had with them. How I called my mom after to share with her. And again, the thinking... I've been reflecting on all that my mom had shared that she had gone through. I've watched over the years how she has held on in life. And it reminded me...

That I had died.

I remember the flashes across my mind of all that I would hope to experience...if only God would hear my prayer as my body was convulsing and I was stretched out as though I was on a cross... And I laughed LOL. I laughed and I felt the gush of blood leaving my body and ...I thanked God for considering my prayer. As though it was a cover letter for a resume or something :P 

And in between that moment and waking, I experienced "making a choice". To help others to connect in with their Divine and intimate relationships with God if that "Second chance" was going to be an option for me.

And this was the face of a person returned to life and set on a mission.

The journey had begun. I was full on in observation mode. And my Core objective was focused in. I was returned to the space of labels and stigmas, and status, and expectations...

I felt the weight of "living" under all of these and yet...I didn't "own" them. I owned the opportunity within them. The opportunity of presence. Presence in THIS life. To BE there and see, in fullness, life and the living of it.

"Good" or "bad", I had the GIFT of BEING "IN" it. That's all I wanted as I prayed that prayer. To be present in those moments I longed for.

So when I feel overwhelmed, like life is heavy, that my presence doesn't "matter", I remember that I have a button. MY "ESC" button.

I return to my Core intent. I focus in on the living and presence and beauty of life in others. I focus in on the longing and work of others putting into their lives for just a glimpse and "hit" of that bliss and joy, and happiness....that RADIANCE of life!

I know the intensity of my very presence in this very moment in time. I feel it. The value of BEING in the patient and attentive space of Presence in this life.

So if you feel like things are a bit "MUCH" right now, you're not wrong....and I am here to help support you. I know I am. So if this moves you, share...and reach out. I am willing to be present for you too <3 

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