Good morning! Interesting conversations this week....and realizing...that many (including myself) are "used to" the "feeling" of good enough....as though when you done what you believe is "good enough" that that is enough or that fixes it......(crickets)...
...to tell you the truth, this is new for me....only very recently have I come to understand the "feeling". I have had some "meh" actions before, but I already knew it's because I didn't like and by no means did I hold myself accomplished or complete by having done the bare minimum with a half hearted attempt (ugh....like lukewarm....fluids...) That's when I knew that it was not worth it for me and would leave it for someone who cared more or was more willing...And it was in those moments that I learned to appreciate those doing things I wouldn't or even cared to do....and to recognize my OWN unique gifts, talents, and passions.
So back to that "good enough" feeling....me personally, it has been showing up in my work outs. LOL and for now, I am okay with it. (I know, for some of you, that just registered as "lukewam" ...I'm sorry and I'm not...) WHY am I okay with it? Because...I am observing and recognizing where it is I started in this moment. Not going back to 9 years ago when I was involved in contests, lifting heavy, looking lean, and had nice rounded out delts... No, from the point of having to rely on chiro and massage after a rollover in order to feel "normal" in my body and going through a new physical (and mental) journey with myself.
I used the vices of my mind and created a beginning point for a new story...and I am recognizing my progress day by day...I am increasing reps and weights, but I am focused on keeping it fun, easy, and sustainable. And I am challenging my own "good enough" language....and celebrating showing up physically at all. And feeling the workout more and more day by day, activity by activity.
In short, I am not letting "good enough" be good enough for me. It is not my core standard, it's what I am experiencing in the moment. It's not where I am planning to stay or perceive from...because for me, that feels lost and looking for landmarks I knew 10, 20, even 30 years ago, but things have since moved, blown down, and been replaced. There is a bigger picture and a better way of knowing in the spaces around me and I choose to see from a bigger viewpoint when it comes to life and living.
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