DO I truly believe who it is that I am?

 DO I truly believe who it is that I am?

Do you ever get surprised or are setback with awe about some of the things you have done or who you have been?

This morning I was reading through my writing folder and found an unfinished work. I sat back and was reading it, and when I got to the point where I had not finished I was shocked!

LOL I KNOW I wrote it, but man, it was GOOD! And I wanted to read more, but it wasn’t there. 

And I know, it was because I was interrupted and wanted to finish but lost my flow… (I’m still gutted I didn’t finish because I really wanted to read how it ended LOL). But the thing that is standing out the most to me is… 

As an artist, the creative flow tends to land on me like a bucket of water sometimes…and I just flow with it and put out what has been called through me, and when I am done, I sit back and appreciate what this “thing” is.

There is a painful disconnect (sometimes) that didn’t involve a methodical or logical step by step process that I follow the steps of to produce what I have done. I am actually quite in awe (and a little bit jealous) of my older son who is quite the artist and creator. He sees the process…he sees the whole thing to its end and then he lays it out and proceeds to fill in the middle.

I get these downloads of insight and channeled creative frenzy and when it’s done, it’s a work of art that was birthed and I can revisit it again and again as though it is new to me and be inspired or encouraged by what was created. I'm not "connected" to the "me" who created it in that moment.

I don’t think we look deep enough into the process of what we put “labels” to.

I often feel the unknowing space of “imposter syndrome” (or whatever that space is where you know you’re supposed to know the something that you are sharing, but feel like a complete newb and begin questioning yourself…), but I think it may have more to do with how “creation”or “knowing” has worked for me over the years and how it differs from how it “feels” most others are doing things.

Can you relate? Do you feel like the weirdo in the pack? Do you feel outside of the definition or example that is operating around you? 

Who am “I” really?

And the first answer that comes through (see?? What is this process? LOL) is “I am the experience of “me” at this moment…in wholeness.” Everything that has come before, how I perceived it, and my perspective that I am operating with now is the “I” that I am and the “I” that gets to CHOOSE how to proceed in my next moments to come.

And THIS is why I value having a VISION! A bigger picture applied to HOW I want to be living my life.

Because the “I” that I “get” to be moment to moment is SO VAST with potential and possibility. I truly feel we are here choosing how to manage the abundance that we all have …which is us.

Anyways, I hope you feel some encouragement from this pondering this morning.

I’m off to “push” past this “pause” that felt like doubt and continue with what I have decided to do in this moment called TODAY. 💖

#thankyouGod #DivineGifts #experience #lifetothefull #creation #artist #painter #writer #mastery #trusttheprocess #HoldtheVision #bepresent #INjoy #Lovefirst #appreciation

Power of ponder

Good Mawning!!

Power of ponder

A friend posted a paraphrase …”Thinking is the hardest thing that people never do…” and oddly enough, it always makes me think when I hear or see this phrase.

Today, I decided to sink into the “why” from another perspective… How would “I” feel if I avoided thought and thinking and just buried myself in doing and distraction?

Well, first of all…from my current experience, I HATED not having an answer. This entire statement comes out of social “trauma” moments including a more “recent” attempt at “humiliating” me done by a “grown” man teaching a group (that was a full circle moment I will share about another time).

So I can only imagine, if someone was asked to think about something and not have a quick response or “knowing” about it like how our society often expects, then I can understand why people “opt out” of “thinking” in depth at all….it’s not safe. Expression and perspective gets cut off or shamed … I’d leave that whole “mess” alone too.

So what can “WE” do to change this?

How can “WE” foster more thought and personal perspective being expressed in the lives of those around us?

1. Establish a safe space for being IN the process of thoughts and thinking. Also keeping in mind, a lot of the thoughts that people are “alone” with might not be friendly, nurturing, encouraging, OR kind. What is the tone and language that many of these “thoughts” present as for people?

What I have learned from my own journey of transforming the critical language in my head into a team player is… there is a process through which thoughts and thinking should be guided through, much like harnessing electricity toward powering a lightbulb. 

2. Start with exposure to safe and kind thinking and thoughts through reading and listening, and then when a safe example exists, a new filter can be applied to sort through the bubbles of thought that float by…and compassion can be applied to the rest.

3. Knowing that your UNIQUE perspective of and to the world is NEEDED and valued, and worthy of being heard. You ARE a necessary piece to this puzzle and big picture we are all a part of. You hold an answer and solution within and through YOU that someone out there is seeking for THEIR problem. 

4. And just by you BEING you and ALLOWING yourself to “think” through your unique lens of perspective, makes it possible for that solution to be expressed and shared as a contribution into this world.

5. And last but not least…know that you have PERMISSION to share your viewpoint, words, and thoughts out into the world. Yes, there are some “expressions” out there that are loud, suppressive, and intended for harm. They may have missed the steps listed above. And that is THEIR choice to be the “voice” to those things. Your voice however is NOT the same and still deserves to be heard and added to the symphony of life we are living. You are safe, you are supported, you intend for good. … now go and share and connect. We’re ready to see and hear you.  #ThankYouGod #biggerpicture #thinking #agency #safespace #knowthyself #compassion #Kindness #Sawubona #beingyou #unique #contribution #ofgreatvalue #greaterstill #growthmindset #yesyoucan #mentalwellness #expression

The power of your possibilities are always with you

 Good mawning!

The power of your possibilities are always with you

I made plans.

I wanted them to work. And even when things weren’t working in the way that I wanted them to, I said I would come back with renewed strength at a later date.

And the “thing” I was hoping to pick up with was no longer available.

I “missed” the opportunity.

Have you ever felt the “opportunity” slip through your fingers?

Even better, have you ever felt or wished that you had been MORE ready for when the opportunity was in front of you and in your “grasp”?

That window always feels SO small, doesn’t it?

I’ve had “opportunities” I had jumped in with that were NOT what I was hoping on the “other side”... as well, I have missed opportunities that still feel like they are haunting me or “with” me still in some way…sometimes feeling like a taunt to a good thing missed.

But today, after doing a meditation to pull more of myself together in wholeness and loving acceptance, I felt a whisper… and then a surge of energy and “reel” of possibilities flashed before me.

Possibilities that “we” could have been but didn’t venture down the road of…

And then…

I felt the “contribution” of them all. The lessons, the confidence, the worthiness, the deserving, the adventure and wonder, the contribution of character, the power of exercising choice… so much of it and the wealth it has left me…US with.

I say us, because it hasn’t only influenced me, these “opportunities”, and the pondering of them… it has influenced my family and friends as well.

And then, to know that it has shown up for others in their lives….these waves that have gone out…

And as waves go out, they also can return… with more force, more power, more influence…

Your dreams and opportunities are always possible in some form…if you let it.

Let’s celebrate that you are here in this life to live it…. More fully.

Type “POP” in the comments to claim the power of YOUR possibilities.

#thankyouGod #DivineGifts #gratitude #power #possibilities #POP #livelifetothefull #opportunities #bestisyettocome #wholeness #mindset #growthmindset #youAre #greaterstill #trusttheprocess #holdtheVision #biggerpicture

Family walks are back!

 An early #tbt to this past weekend.

Family walks are back!

We definitely hibernated this year LOL, so back at it and CONSISTENTLY to stay ready for hiking going forward.

Staying ready feels good. It's a good habit for us as a family

What do you do to "stay ready" ?

#walking #hiking #outinnature #progess #simpleandconsistent #trusttheprocess #mindsetmatters #goodhabits