Sharing the love of music

 Well, the boys are sharing a new love in their lives with me... techno and house music ...this is going to be fun/interesting ...anyone remember any of the classics? (And I admit, it doesn't resonate with me as it once did, but I am glad for their discovery

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#danceitup #interestingdevelopments #youngmen #expressions

Popcorn! Considering consciousness

 Popcorn ;)

I had a friend ask on Facebook, "What does the word "consciousness" mean to you? *gets popcorn*?

 

And this was my response (even though there was a lot more I would add...) 'consciousness....knowing that you have sight, but are not sight, that you have breath and that you are breath, ...the resonance of....the witnessing and experiencing of self through others through self....fullness of existence...know ing of existence and all that is...the greatness of the Whole witnessing of itself in pure joy' <3

What's on your apple?

 Okay...it looked like a spot of ash stuck on the apple I was about to eat so I gave it a rinse and was drying it off with a paper towel...why is this apple greasy? ...wax...so I washed with some soap and water (at this point the "ash" rubbed in with the greasy finish of the apple and was smearing all over the place)...got the ash off..not the wax...so I decided to buff it...WOWOW! did it ever SHINE!...Now I REALLY don't want to eat it LOL...It's having a soak in a vinegar and water bath now...

#waxjob #doesitworkonnails? #organicfruit #inbetweenseasonalfruits

FB Good morning post - January 30, 2015

 Good morning! ♪♫♪ DO you see what I see...♪♫♪ A hope, a light, a reason for the madness, an answer to a prayer...it will be an AMAZING day as it has already been full of wonders and surprise...challenges and growth...what more?? Fully gratitude

Have an amazing and wondrous day and weekend

#thankyouGod #blue #inspiration #divineinfusion #strength #wisdom #blessings #cleanhouse? #woot!

FB Good morning post - January 27, 2015

 Good morning! I am ... yeah, I think I will leave it at that

...haven't had much to say...been feeling out of sorts and needing a major rest day (and subtle is out the window...vacation and downtime is screaming right now)...LOL, and I would like to be intentional about choosing it instead of it forcing it's will, but it IS coming ....the things we get to honour with ourselves, in order to bring and share our best with others....

Now off to enjoy some gratitude and study... (and a bit more jicama).

#thankyouGod #roughmonth #smoothsailing #perseverance #Lovefirst #morerest

Take the next step forward

 Good morning! Well, the subtle and silent have been speaking...this step of the journey has been cleared and the next step forward is underfoot

...funny though, the path remains unknown until the foot hits the ground... here we go!

Off and running into a new day...and new year...maybe newer direction

#thankyouGod #faithforward #lightthepath #movethetorch #dreambig #narrowpath

Enjoy the fullness of intention

 Good morning! It was a long day at the motorcycle show down at Northlands yesterday ( today is the last day)...the boys did great riding the bikes, and we shared encouragement with other bikers at the CMA booth. But I wake up this morning, prayed, and Holy Reverence Batman! Graced with insight...our lives are like breath...you can go through it involuntarily and/or enjoy the fullness of intention of breathing throughout and with your entire body...fully allowing yourself to know and experience the blessing, bliss, ecstasy, and revelation of mystery into your very life experience...and what I shared is not what I I read and saw....ooh the fun and joy of it!

Now for more! How Could I not? Better than my morning water... Thirst quenching indeed! Enjoy a great day!

#thankyouGod #quiettimes #biblestudy #prayersanswered #moreandmore #ofgreatvalue

Here to share a great message

 Good morning! It's almost as if Thursdays are a day for me to consider what most would cringe to entertain thought with...but I am in full-on question mode and unconditional love and Its' embodiments are on the table...

...It came, within the gift of our created uniqueness, in the mode that would best allow the message to be heard...

So I see that, this, right here, ...NOW, is and was and will be the BEST time for me to be here...as ambassador...with a great message to be heard.

What facet of unconditional love are you hear to share and remind others of?

#thankyouGod #incarnate #whateverform #unconditionalLove #divineunion #allow #remember #accept #embrace #shareyourgift

Thank YOU for shining

 Good morning! Thank you sunshine for shining. Not that you need my thanks in order to keep shining, but I am grateful for the feeling of warmth and of light in my life that I appreciate from you and so I offer my thanks in return.

Thank YOU for shining as well. (You know who you are. Yes YOU! The one reading this...have a beautiful, and bright day )

#thankyouGod #divineradiance #bringontheLight #shinelikestars #inspire #glowon

How I am most of the time

 I have a "secret" to admit...for some of you, you may perceive me as bubbly, energetic, enthusiastic, and super happy.

But here is the clincher, I am!...in my head. And with a select few, I am as described above...

I humbly admit though, for the most part, I am pretty quiet and calm...like a warm glow...I guess I'm like a slow simmer

#quiettimes #introverted? #sociable #LovetoLove

Open up options where you experience "traffic"

 Good morning! Alrighty folks! This is getting interesting with the traffic in the morning....so, I'm gonna consider that this is just apocalyptic preparation for us all, and that I need to study the map and roadways a little better to open up my options. Thank you for the inspiration

And in other news, it a balmy, and sunny day into the plus temperatures today!

Stay calm and enjoy your inspired day!

#thankyouGod #notsarcastic #grateful #staysafe #bigfire #firetrucks #accidents #commuting #increasedgratitude

Turn down the volume (on negative self-talk)

I dropped the lemon peel! AAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!

...and then it would begin...the flurry of negative self-talk that would rant and criticize me for being...clumpsy, not focused, lazy ("you could have made more than one trip to the garbage can you know"), stupid,...and falling short of perfection at every turn. "How could I possibly do or be (fill in the blank of a desired goal here), if I can't even get a lemon peel to the garbage..." It was downright abusive. And yes, to this day, I am sensitive to the language and tone...I can pick it out of the subtlest of comments...and it has become a gift and a way to help others...

So from where I stand now..."Really? REALLY?? You want to let dropping a lemon peel derail you for life? To ruin your whole day?" But I used to...I know, I know. ..there is a lot worse happening in the world right now...children starving in 3rd world countries, etc, etc...but really, how do I put a life together when it seems like everything I do is wrong?

Now for some, reading this makes absolutely no sense " Where is she even trying to go with this?", "She sounds completely flipped!" ...but for some, it cuts deep...and it is to those who I am speaking to and serving here...in this moment, in this message. It will be jumbled and it will jump ALL over the place and if you can stick it out, through the two voices in my head that are trying to put together one message, then it may help...Help you to feel understood,  to feel you are not alone, and to possibly offer a glimmer of hope...

..the stand off officially started 5 years ago...one late night/early morning where I was "disturbed" out of sleep by her critiques again...I had enough! She was NOT going to continue to rob me of sleep or to continue these unguarded attacks anymore...I was tired...tired of getting no sleep, and tired of hearing this cap in my head. So I met her with some tools and I would like to share them...

Turn #1 Stand firm!

Now this came to me in a waking vision that would make a great movie one day, but a loud resounding voice, prior to the moment I am describing, said "Stand firm!" (LOL Was it God talking to me? Was it due to the many years of compromised sleep?...very possible) And I did! I woke up full and ready! 3 am baby! Every single day! She was punctual with her attacks, and I decided to make the time productive. (Yeah? You're gonna wake me up again at this time?...watch me and you...) Every time the banter began, I got productive...dishes, laundry, cooking, baking, working out, etc. Activity was the first thing I put in the place of the noise. (Ha HA! What was that? Oh I can't hear you...too busy...lifting these weights...grunt!) I made a list and I picked away at. And it worked ...for a bit...

Turn #2 Learn a new language

At that point where activity became habitual, there was space in my head again...so I filled that space with reading. The bible was the first thing I turned to. LOL people wondered how I could be so consistent with my quiet times, and this was part of the reason why. To shut up and down that nagging negative talk! It really did help to save my life and I was also given a great gift of insight into what I was reading. it showed me how time and time again, many of those in the bible went through the same thing! LOL this struggle and inner battle is by far NOT new to the human experience. ..I looked into other books and literature as well. ..Nonviolent communication was a biggie...other "self-help" books and "personal development" literature...all these help me to acknowledge what I was going through, gave tools in how to move forward through the negativity, and filled my mind and head space with some good stuff to hear for a change. But when things got a little derailed,  it created a window of opportunity for the critic to emerge (I hadn't dealt with her officially...yet!)

Turn #3 Adjust what you see and face what  you hear...

Here came that space again...the space for the clammer, the critique, the maniacal laughter of a new level of attack...still punctual she was, but as in Ecclesiastes, everything is meaningless,  and she started bringing circumstances and other people into the conversation. I will admit, it was a VERY challenging time, with not only the voice in my head going at me, but others in my life...I almost wanted to die. I felt like a lamb going to slaughter. ..what could I say? There was nothing I could do, say, or be to change the negative views and hatred that were flying at me, inside and out...and then I realized I needed a bubble! A bubble of rainbows, and sunshine, and unicorns...where was my dang happy place!?! But before I could have that, I needed to clear the space first...I changed the way I looked at my circumstances...and the truth was, I couldn't change in the way that my circumstances wanted me to...it was not healthy and I couldn't be what they wanted without denying all that is good about me...and then it was HER turn! Through the help of nonviolent communication techniques, I began a new conversation with her.? I let her speak so I could get to the root of the need she felt was not being met...support, encouragement, appreciation...not being met. And then I asked her for help...

Turn #4 Know your role! And get driving...

Now it was official...time to adjust the dial of what I was listening to and saying. She agreed to help...and was still criticizing me! I needed to get to work on meeting needs. LOL and she needed something ELSE to focus on instead of negativity. So I established that from now on the primary focus will be to love and encourage me and that she is welcome to let me know when things are not on track and that I will listen and observe (support), and that we can both work together to keep moving forward (LOL like Thelma and Louise, but I am doing the driving (and I choose the radio station and volume) and she is in the passenger seat.

Morning ponderings on a crisp winter's day

 Good morning! In considerings mode....from within into the world...Whole Love....resonant Truths that are within us all...

And that it is sunny and wonderfully "sharp" outside this morning (beyond crisp LOL...EXTRA fresh ) Enjoy a great day and weekend

#thankyouGod #deepness #greaterwisdoms #staywarm

FB Good morning post - January 7, 2015

 Good morning! And even after getting up at 1 and not getting much sleep, as well as feeling the consequences from not having sleep (I did get some rest though)....I am grateful. My heart is beating (hard this morning. ..like an announcement)...my mind is still lucid...my thoughts have not consumed or attacked me (or others), and I remain hopeful that things will work out great, even though I feel like I have been thrown under a bus (it's the throwing that hurts most

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Keeping it simple today with smiling, appreciating, and moving slowly

#thankyouGod #shortday #naptime #excited #hoping_for_miracles