How could I have loved more?

I'm standing here...

My son just heading to bed after being up all night on his computer...

Looking out the window and considering how many times our neighbour freely walked into our yard to knock on our back door.

I'm so glad we never "figured out" how to close that in.

I'm so glad our neighbour always knew he was MORE THAN welcome to come over.

And I hope he knew how much we loved him and considered him family.

How much MORE we wanted to be there for him and reciprocate the many gifts he's given us over the years.

Greetings, smiles, news, conversations, side jobs, cookies, chocolate, cards, gluten free pancakes with turkey bacon (also gluten free), furniture... my most favourite mirror at the end of the hall.

Moving into this neighbourhood was a faith walk in itself (a story for another time), but what was greater was the miracle of knowing even more deeply what #onenotherlove looks like.

I can still see him walking away after our chat a couple days ago. Tanned legs, moving slower...

I should've insisted the boys go over...I should've...

WE (ALLof us) are in "debt" each day.

To pay the continuing debt to love one another.

At the end of a life, this calculation is always being made. I've been to WAY MORE funerals than weddings and I will tell you this one truth...

We are ALWAYS asking... "How could I have loved more?"

So let's start each morning WE ARE gifted with with this question and we will be given the answer.... and gifted with showing up in life more fully.

Who knew a simple and repeated thank you would be enough.

Romans 13:8

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I woke with acceptance.

 

This morning...

I woke with acceptance.

The potential for feeling heaviness was not so heavy because it was out of my control.

I honour the choices I have made in life, because again, they've already been made and they are out of my control.

So then what is left?

Live forward.

Live WELL forward.

Make new choices with the "future me" in mind.

Take small, simple, and inspired actions I can nod approval for.

Pray blessings and well-being on those around me because... I really do mean to and I celebrate their "life-well-lived" when I see and hear about it.

Go after doing the things I've dreamt about over and over again... because someone IS celebrating me and wanting ME to live MY life fully too.

We ARE here for the FULL LIVING.

And from the depth and joy of soul-filled living and conversations last week, to the reminder that death prompts this week, I feel the pull and call to live and share my life fully NOW.

May you connect with the depths of your soul today, and dance lightly with your spirit as you make moves more from the Wholeness within.

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With my joy set before me...

 With my joy set before me...

I always knew I was going to be a mom. My whole life vision I built for myself at the age of 5 was based on meeting the needs of my many children.

I decided the woman and mother I would become at the age of 12 after a pinnacle moment with my own mother.

I put all the possibilities that would get in my way of being a mom on the table when I was in high school. And then devised a way around them all, including global adoption.

I didn't know I would face most of them... break ups, miscarriages, beginning the adoption process...

And these 2 managed to show up in this world and be one of the greatest reasons I set such a great joy before me and within me...

Because no matter how many "dislikes" and "failed" opportunities I've faced, I don't want them to submit to defeat in their lives.

I want them to find a way to LIVE the dreams they hold dear, and as fully and unapologetically as possible.

God knows we choose to live a life of love and as Light in this world and the best way to do that is to know with faith and belief...that you can and will be that which you allow yourself to dream yourself to be.

So dream big and beautiful dreams. Hold it out in front of you as a map or light for your path, and take one step at a time towards that place of joy you desire to be in.

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